what if...

:: what if fernando poe jr. smoked a pack less of marlboro or drank a bottle less of his favorite whiskey, would he still be alive today? would he have won the presedential elections of 2004? would he have made a difference anyway?

:: what if loren didn't administer all those blowjobs, would she have ran for vice president anyway?

:: what if i regularly watched john and marsha episodes before, would i have cried upon hearing the news of nida blanca's violent end?

:: what if i haven't read a single conrado de quiros column or a single pugad baboy comic strip, would i still be the philippine daily inquirer fan that i am today?

:: what if i insisted to study in diliman, would i have graduated college before i was 20?

:: what if i insisted to study in don bosco makati for high school, would i still be alive today?

:: what if i were lactose intolerant, would i have landed a job at hedcor?

:: what if i have been obssessed with being like alan greenspan, would i have pursued a degree in economics instead?

:: what if i were a devout catholic, would i still have apologized to the devil and listened to his side of the story?

:: what if i were a bigger fan of voltes v rather than daimos, would i still be searching for erika?

:: what if i and the rest of my friends tripped on crack instead of weed, would i still be overweight? would i still have enough sleep?

:: what if i haven't been so into tv dinners, would i have spent less time eating and more time reading than eating and watching tv at the same time?

:: what if i haven't grown a goatee, would my barber be more friendly?

:: what if my wife's folks were still alive, would they have migrated to australia? would we have met? where would she be now? where would i be now? living separate lives i guess; the sad thing though, we wouldn't have met justine and alex.

:: what if i haven't heard of the cure's "boys don't cry" and the dawn's "envelope ideas" back in 1988, would i be high on rnb and nigger music today instead?

:: what if my sister iris were alive, would i have been born in 1979? or would i have been born at all?

:: what if i'm more into juices rather than coffee, would i be shaking less every exam?

:: what if i talked less and listened more, would i have an overwhelming and suffocating number of irritating friends? as irritating as i am?

:: what if there were no religions and governments, just people living in symbiotic communities, would there have been a need to put up gay bars?

:: what if i took the bus rather than the cab, would i still have money left for lunch and coffee?

:: what if i just wake up 20 minutes earlier everyday, would my 201 file be as thick as it is?

:: what if i had beer instead of vodka; a tape deck instead of a cd player; a sweater instead of a jacket; a book instead of a magazine; latté instead of mocha; black instead of blue; orange instead of grey; a skinhead instead of a crop; a cat instead of a dog; answers instead of just plain stupid questions, would i still be me?

:: what if you didn't turn your back, what then?

i'm out.