choices

i'm on unchartered teritory. haven't been in this position before. but yes, i have to bear the consequences of my choices. no matter how hard. no matter how painful. all i ask for are two things: (1) if ever i do get out of this ordeal alive, i wish i could come out of it as someone who knows himself better after the dust and smoke settle; (2) if possible, she gets out if this mess unscathed. which is near impossible as the mistakes i made may have caused her irrepairable damages.

but what i do know now is this... that we cannot be defined by the mistakes we made. we cannot even be defined by the choices we made.

choices. we make them. we have to live with them. we even have to live with the choices we don't like. everybody does. what can define us is how we stand up to the consequences of our choices and mistakes.

i'm standing here right now. for as long as i can. for as long as i will.